Dream or Reality?

For the past few weeks, I've had a dream that I'm in love with this guy (I know that's a flaky start, but hear me out)....

This guy has looked a little different each time, but in each dream, he is not someone I would date, ever. He's not my type, quite unattractive (to me) and a total goof but I am crazy in love with him! It's a love that is so pronounced that when I wake up, I can remember how I felt in my dreams. I can feel the love I had while dreaming. They actions in the dream are always random, everyday things but the whole time I'm thinking, I am disturbingly in love with this guy.

The overarching theme in the dream is that it doesn't look like what I thought I wanted and I'm conscious of that. Yet it's more than anything I could have ever dreamed (but if I'm dreaming it, maybe it isn't more than I could've dreamed)... I remember at one point in the dream last night, I looked at him over the room, and mouthed "I love you." Although I was in mid-conversation with someone else, all I could think about what how much I loved this guy.

By the end of the dream, we had a daughter (thank God she looked like me!) and when I came home from work, presumably after long day, he was cooking dinner, she was in the high chair eating contently and they were both thrilled to see me. Afterwards he gave her a bath and I watched them both thinking, "does it get any better than this?"

I'm kind of sketched out about the whole thing, honestly, because I remember every detail and I can still feel.... However, I tend to think this is more of a metaphor about life more than it is about a relationship.

I thought maybe it correlates with my relationship with God. Certainly I couldn't have ever imagined I'd be a Baha'i and yet it is so fulfilling and it's renewed my relationship with God. I feel like I'm falling in love with God all over again.

Or maybe it's to teach me to be content with life, even if it's not what I imagined. What's so strange is that in the dream, I'm always aware of this is not what I wanted or what I thought I wanted but, it's mine - my reality.

I think too often in life, we try to take reign over everything and forget that as much as we'd like to run our own agenda, there is someone with a plan far superior to our own.